What a woman believes to be beautiful, what a woman believes about herself and how she believes God sees her defines her definition of beauty.
It all starts with what a woman believes…to be true. What a woman believes to be beautiful.
Lena is my dear friend’s daughter and she kindly dressed in an old fashioned vintage gown and a vintage fur coat on a rare snow day here in the PNW for this styled photoshoot.
What I believe to be beautiful
I have written quite a lot about beauty. Being a photographer, I am seeking out beauty and light. I seek to capture the most beautiful perspective of a person, a flower, a barn, a quilt.
I am photographing an appearance, a perspective. The most beautiful perspective to me.
Lena doesn’t dress this way in her real life but she does admire old fashioned costumes and she loves the TV series,
“When Calls the Heart.”
I am not showing the soul of a person. I cannot show their kindness, their righteousness or their goodness. (not in a photo) When I share photography with others, I am only sharing the outward appearance. I may know the person, the mountain, the quilt intimately. I may see the soul beauty in others. When it comes time to share “beauty,” my newest endeavor is to share Inner and Soul Beauty along with outward beauty.
God values our whole being; heart, soul and the “hairs on our head.” He values our body and what we will eat and what we will wear. It is my newfound endeavor to always be accountable in this matter. I must capture and share soul beauty.
Lena loves and respects her parents and gives her kindness to others. She helps with her younger siblings and babysits her cousins often.
What I believe about myself…
I feel extremely vulnerable writing what I truly believe about myself. Here goes: My feelings change from moment to moment. My looks even change throughout the day. My inner and outward beauty comes and goes all day long. I must choose to believe how God truly sees me. Otherwise, I would be tempted to believe I don’t measure up to all the pretty images I see. I admire pretty images but now I’ve learned to value real life, Nature, walking and taking in “the heavens.” Because they declare the beauty of God. When I look upon God and ALL He has made, I feel that life is beautiful and no matter what I look like, I believe that all is well.
My worth is not based on what I look like. God does not value us any more or any less by the way we look. He created us. He made us in His image. Would He not fashion us just how it pleased Him? He would not create me ugly to Him. He created me beautiful to Him.
Lena wears a purity necklace. She values rightousness and lives to please God.
How I know God sees me
God tells me that my worth and value is not based on anything I do or achieve.
God says I am valuable even doing nothing.
I am valuable no matter how much I screw up. No matter my sins: worry, jealousy, self indulgence, self pity, No matter when I can’t hear Him clearly or totally miss the boat. I am valuable. I am the apple of His eye.
Outward Beauty does fade over time but inner beauty does not.
I think sometimes the biggest problem to our faith and relationship is doubting that God loves me. No matter what. And nothing can separate us from His love.
How does God see me? He sees both what I look like in the flesh and what is inside my heart. His love knows no bounds. Nothing can change His abundant love for me.
Ever since I started writing this piece about inner beauty, I have clearly seen some inner “ugliness” (in myself)…time to clean up the mess inside ;/
Thanks for taking time to listen to my heart,
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